I'm always hope troubles will be something one day. Is it too much if I wish I had no troubles and keep being a winner and genius one?

Everytime I see trouble in my office I usually said "another world has the same way too" then I'm back to work patiently. Hope the experience will be something at the future.

Mr. R quotes

Hope I could find a better place. A place for mom and dad. A place for the world. Place for dreams and future. Place for happiness.

I should understand that job will never be easy. There's always an enemy who tried to lose me. Every place try to split, kill, and makes me unhappy.

I believe that I should make my happiness first so I can make people's happiness.





I wanna live abroad.

It reminds and inspiring me something

If someday I met someone maybe I'll tell him less what about me.

I think I'm a woman who not deserve for who I am

I'm not a class winner

My bosses seems looking me ordinary

Office never made up my salary

I don't have many friends

I'm not sure if those people will attend my parties

People tell I'm not smart of doing something

Often my parents make me think I'm better live abroad, being so far from home. Far from neighborhood and family judgement. I'm so tired of being fool.

I wanna do something right whether it's not popular enough. It's okay for me for not being a bright star at the stage as long as I could be a point of that star-moment. It's okay for me to not having a social media that filled with a lot of friends. I see sincere, not an amount. It's enough for me to spend a night with DVD or in a coffee shop with someone I love than spend moneys abroad and wears Aigner. I love to wear good and expensive things to make myself happy. Wear executive brands is the way to treat ourself good. Work good, paid good, live good.

I just remember that I've lost my memory just because a dumb and slutty man who steal my life. He steal my future, way, virginity in not a physical meaning, and maybe friends. Actually that's thanks enough to make me see who's my actually friends.

I was hoped to see him again. Now I feel he better die, soon will be better. He's just make me see that true friend's can't be stolen and I'm actually have nobody. I just have myself. I'm alone who should see my own life.

Dear slut, do you imagine how I am after you gone? I'm dumped, fool, jerks, low paid, and being nothing. That's what you like from seeing me. But also you who made me see to wisely choose a person. 

Good night my lovely slut and his warm families. I know you're happy now. I don't like your happiness. I want your death. Soon will be better.

Man

Actually man is the only creature I adore. Good man is so cool. I wanna be like him. Confident, independent, survive, rich, tasty, n classy. He's a fear for low people and a big enemy for wrong people.

Honestly I can't imagine how being a good lady who looks pretty everytime. If I wanna be a best partner (called wife) for my cool man should I be a pretty woman? I think that cool man will loves a great big girl who can take herself safely.

Pajak Day

I see myself so pathetic today.

Both my parents are person who can made they only daughter live happily ever after. I don't know how to be them. I just wanna make myself happy, giving, and if God let me being a good lady (honestly I just wrote "man").

Sorry to say but I think my recent place is not good enough to live in. It's insecure. They don't give me higher positions and may be fired me everytime.

I want everythings gonna be okay. It's so disgusting for having problems in life. Not because I'm too tired facing problems, but everyone is blaming more than they should be.

Parents

I'll never do the good things if it's not because of you. I just want to make you happy, like what you did to me.

Seseorang bisa dengan mudahnya men-judge bahwa "dia pendendam" hanya karena diantara mereka salah pengertian. Have you ever be him? Apa yang akan ada di pikiran anda saat anda dituduh bohong, salah, atau hal2 buruk lainnya oleh orang yang anda harapkan? You can't said good communications always happen. It's you the one who make it didn't happen. 

Emang anda pernah merasakan nggak bisa mendapatkan hal yang anda inginkan padahal anda sudah memperjuangkannya habis2an? Pernah nggak?!!! Apalagi kegagalan itu dipicu oleh orang yang tadinya anda percaya. He's the one who tell you lies. Besides of telling someone lies you better see yourself. It's may be you the real disaster.

Kayaknya mau jadi apa aja dimana aja tuh terserah asal bahagia. Di dunia ini banyak orang yang nggak pinter, gak baik, licik, dan hidupnya fine2 aja. Sorry to say saya juga gak mau susah kalo orang lain juga tega kayak gitu sama saya. I do everything for you dan you malah kayak gitu sama saya. Tau gitu saya juga gitu aja. Jadi egois, mau menang sendiri dan menghalalkan segala cara itu udah cara yg paling bener.

Kalo nggak inget saya kayak gini demi ayah ibu saya kalian semua pasti udah mati saya bakarin satu2.

Now I see other people are amazing and I'm too pathetic to be mine.

Winners never lose their dreams

Makes life as easy as blinking the eyes. Those are done fast and have perfect ending.

We work for making money, not for wasting time.

People who gives nothing after what you did for them are the same nothing too.

I see people who bussiness in style are full of bullshit.

Thanks

I'm really feel blessed by having a homy homes, lovely parents and sisters, lovely partner of work, lovely job.

Thanks God

May you could take me to the better place. So I could give my parents a better place, better money, better time, better name. I could love myself more, enjoy myself more. I'm that great with my job and money. Thank you

What I had now is the best deal I could have. I'm really thanks for all person who accept me perfectly. For teaching me everything, makes me grow day by day. See the world like what it should be seen. I'm being a better person because of you.

But sorry I need a place to hold on to and I really wish I could have. I need a better future and this place won't give me that.

Now I just wanna move to a better place.

Where I could bought a car, home, health insurance, expensive holiday trip, house for poors. I wanna a great place for my family.

That's where I'm good with all I have. Think good, feel good, act good. I REALLY don't wanna be a weird person. I wanna be GOOD.

I want a place where I won't see my recent world anymore. It's rude, cruel, made me down, I'm being a servant with a boss who can't understanded when will he fire me.

It's a sweet memories when I had a great boss, funny office mate, best friend and friendship ever.

Whatever I'll going to go this session really all for me. It's common typical world I'll met later. No, this is better. Bigger world must be more cruel, bad, and wasting much emotions.

Hope for myself

Saya

Orang yang cuma bisa berusaha demi keinginan orang lain.. Melakukan segalanya sebaik yang saya bisa

Orang2 hebat di sekitar saya selalu menjadi inspirasi saya. Ya, saya orang yang selalu ingin menang dan berkuasa. Saya tidak peduli siapa yang saya kalahkan saya harus bisa menang tanpa ampun. Orang harus mau melihat saya sebagai seseorang yang tidak pernah kalah menghadapi apapun, I'm the winner.

Seringkali sy bertanya, salah gitu kl saya menang? I just wanna make sure my family is safe. That's all I care. Saya nggak mau kami sedih, apalagi sampai hidup merana dan mengemis. Big no.

Saya nggak mau tertipu, saya nggak mau merasa rugi, saya harus selalu menang dan bahagia

Hope someday I'll be out from here

Hope someday I'll be out from here

It doesn't matter to kill your own friends. They kill you too when you need them.

Gabungan dari bos yg gamau tau ada apa, maunya beres aja, kontraktor resenya minta ampun, kunci berantakan, gue dituduh bohong dan lama2 cenderung dimanfaatin. Mau apa?

Jadi gak papa lah ya kalo gue woles banget gamau tau ada apa disana. Yang penting semua beres.

Deal banget

World now

Mostly places want us to be happy

Mostly places want us to give our best for them even they give nothing for us

I can't hold to many happiness. It's better I give happiness to other while I grab my own target.

Maybe it's true we'll get most things like what we think them of. God makes your dream come true

World wants to see me around the world. Giving helps even it's a little one.

Now i just wanna surrounded by people who love me

I wanna get out if my office. I see it as the place who broke my life day by day. That's my only hope and may god give me the way to do it futurely. I can't give my care anymore because they choose to not believe me. I better out.

I want a life. A good life that can grow myself, parents, husband, n children perfectly. The most comfort and beautiful ones, with number one facility and quality.

I wanna see my God perfectly. That's all

I believe some people. But they choose being someone lies to me. I care n stay but they never trust my integrity. They said me lied. I didn't lied. They don't trust me even I had evidences. It's them waiting the right time to make me down.

Will me down? I'll quit. To cheer myself up. Wish nothing from anyone. I'll take everything from you like you take everything from me even my life, time, n money.

You may go on your life as long as you can. But maybe someday I'll makes you can't go on your life?

Dulu gue sempet punya wise words we can't expect someone to do what we want to do. Sekarang karena keadaan sangat memaksa gue terpaksa akan menggunakan prinsip pokoknya apa2 harus bisa. Jujur gue nyesel jd orang baik. Jd orang baik gak ada hasilnya. Yang ada juga gue dimarahin, ditipu, dimanfaatin orang, diminta ini itu. Makasih deh ya. Gue bukan orang kaya dan bukan pemurah. Gue gak doyan bagi2 sesuatu ke orang lain. 

Senggol bacok. Lu senggol gua bacok.

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Dirty day

Hari ini gue harus menerima kenyataan (lagi) bahwa hidup gue tergantung dr statement orang lain. Sayangnya ga sampe mati. Padahal sekalian aja dimatiin ya haha.. Apa bedanya? Complain cm menghambat hidup gue dan change nothing. Meskipun gue udah bisa bertanggung jawab sm kesalahan gue it will change nothing. Pasti nanti kata2 berikutnya adalah: "ya jangan salah dong kalo gak mau dimarahin"

Have you ever defense yourself from other's anger? Pernah berhasil gak gue tanya?

Sayangnya gue udah jadi orang yang terlalu bebal untuk dimarahin. Orang yg terlalu gengsi utk mengemis perhatian dan kasih sayang orang lain. Gue orang yang lebih baik kerja sendirian dan manfaatin orang lain utk mencapai tujuan daripada harus percaya sm yg namanya sahabat lah partner lah bestie lah tapi ujung2nya nusuk di belakang.

I had believe nothing in this world. Orang boleh bilang "maaf, saya salah". Enak banget ya? Setelah sebelumnya cuma dari kata2 dia udah ngancurin hidup orang lain. Emang orang kalo udh dibunuh bisa dihidupin lagi gitu?? 

Kalo ada peribahasa makin tinggi pohon makin kencang angin yang berhembus mungkin harus diingat juga oleh para pohon2 tinggi kalo mereka rubuh juga mereka bisa gak sengaja bikin orang mati.

Once more in my life I saw words changed a person into something they aren't meant to.

Some people loves their position more than their good relationship.

For me, that's their choice. For me, I had mine. For me, those all because of you.

Make sure you're happy by yourself

Journal in the rain

I really love raining. 

I'm that homy girl who doesn't like to have an uptown habit. I love being at home, doing feminime things, and love whatever I see. 

For thousand times I rewrite this: people born, live, feel, and think differently. Some people feeling happy just when they see their children face even they have nothing. Some people happy when they had handsome boyfriend. Some people happy when they're alone, travelling new cities, meet something new, meeting new people, got lottery, having money and live luxurious. Different people different ways to live. 

What my own way?

I just wanna live happily ever after. I'm really not smart at all, I do mistakes. I know people do politics but I don't like to live within a common men who fight for their own chair. It's okay if I should live in a village, but don't ever judge me as I'm a dumb woman who can't live luxurious. I don't hate lux things. I just feel like if I had much money I'll spend some of them to help people can't live in a wellness. Not everybody's lucky to have countless money. But when you had it, save it, then spend it wisely.

Me today

Maybe I should ended up my consciousness and start to having a new life.

Maybe I should start more bravely to taking risk, fighting for something that truly matters.

Maybe I should start open my heart, to anyone God sent him for me, let anything happen uncontrolable.

Maybe I should start open my mind to see what the world really are, what should I act to, what can I do for environment

Wish I could find a very good guy, who will always stay beside me. Teach me about good things, bring me to the top, makes me happy, be a good father to our family, raise the children faithfully. He's the one and only this world ever had.

I just wanna live happily ever after.

Sorry for all mistaken words.

We don't have to be smart. We should win whatever happens. Even people likes or not, have a friend or not, being hated or not. We don't have to care. Friendship is the most fake things I ever know.

Salah gak sih kalo gue pengennya live happily ever after? Gue gak yakin gue bisa ngalahin orang lain apa nggak, bisa famous apa nggak, bisa bener apa nggak, orang lain bakal sayang sm gue apa nggak.

Krn gue tau kekurangan diri sendiri gue cm berharap bisa hidup mandiri ga nyusahin orang lain. Bisa survive dgn yg gw punya apa adanya. Gue mungkin gak bisa nyenengin semua orang, tp at least gue mencoba utk bertanya apa yang sekiranya bisa membuat semua happy. Aslinya gue gak berharap bisa punya temen banyak tp gue kalo bisa sama sekali gak pengen punya musuh satupun. Yah kalo bisa disayang sm banyak org sih alhamdulillah banget, makasih, tp kalo enggak juga gak papa. 

Aslinya sampe sekarang gue merasa insecure dan minder sm diri sendiri. Padahal mungkin kl orang lain liat ya ngapain gue minder? Sebodo2, annoying, dan weirdnya gue I don't have to be shy. Just act like you want to do, and try your best.

Menurut gue orang gak salah ketika mereka nge judge pilihan gue jelek/gue jelek/apapun. Gue cuma harus pinter2 mau pilih yg mana. 

Really,

Now I just want to be happy

That's all.

People around me said that I don't have to trust them.. I should save myself, cheer myself up

Do your best, trust no one, love our lovers. thanks for those who stay and raise us up.

All I need now is just being a winner. Being that good doing everything and makes no mistake. 

I'm still that afraid of making bussiness with a man. I'm no doubt about a good man. But I think I'm not a lady that attract a good man. I'm afraid of no's from a man, and I myself figured out how love, commitment, and sex are 3 different things. Nothing can save a man but your body and fulfilled his stomach. Sweet words, protection, and good talk are just men's fairytale. You did it with your friends. 

I want a man who's good, smart, great player, religious, and love me n my family too. He always say yes to whatever I want. He say true things. Protects, care, and cooling me down. He's the one who knows what I wanted without I told him. He's the one in my life.

Help

I'm in a day when so little time but so much things to do. Surrounded by great men that ready to kill me out. Clever men, mr-no-happy-ending. 

Maybe I should getting calmly more, beware, do my best and be a winner.

Bosses must be more harmful than mine O_o

Chayo, Tia. It's just a manager for 600 units. You don't get 2000 units yet.

Good people have attitudes

Attitude brings you to the top

Things to know:

People with good attitudes could change into a monster when nobody respect their acts

Some people decide to be fooled, played, and makes funny of their own life. They don't need attitudes. Let them played, while we flows our lives.

Some people choose to not being friends with us just because they think we can fly higher than 'em. Keep flying, be happy, and see another one

Dreams high, do your best, expect nothing, do good and fair. Great things will come to you.

I wanna great things belong to be mine