Love

In my age (read: life). Love means being together, marriage. Marriage means when two people getting around together as long as their life. Getting photoshoot prewed, share their romantic moment at honeymoon, and appear together as husband and wife.

Appear together as couple or even huaband and wife is not wrong. But surely I do not see him yet. That kind-funny-rich-smart man still invisible. Boss, congrats, you're still being my childhood love.

I don't like architecture. They're amazing but not something I was interested. I don't care how good I am at architecture I won't start my days admiring architecture. I like how its built, how its thinks, and how amazing technology comes to make it grows amazing and done faster. But that's not a thing I think could makes me grow. 

Dear architecture, listen to me. I feel like I'm destined to be with you. Please do not sad, if my feelings are true we will meet again someday, you'll be the one admire for me. Now let me doing bussiness first with make up and haute couture fashion. Interior next, structure next, then architecture. See ya on the next stage of life. I want my husband a developer boss. He ever be an architect, he's good at structure, and now he wants the world needs him arranged. He owns property and owns the world. I'll be standing beside him built the rest of the world

Special person

There's someone who always makes me happy when I talked to him. His hello grow my smile and rising sun in my life. Everything feels so good and right to reach when I'm with him. I often imagine if we're really close so I could reach whatever I want like his daughter always win the 1st prize in whatever competition she takes. I can't hold my tears when I realize we should live separated. I keep pretend to be happy but he's the one I won't lie. I love when I know he knows I'm not lying. I'm cherish with his presence. I love things he loved in my right way. I keep saying I don't like something when I really don't and he should accept my allergic. I'm sure that special feelings appear not because he's a guy n I'm a girl. That's because I trust him a lot. I hope he could be someone I depends on, a very bestfriend God evermade, someone that could stay. If love means stay then yea, I love you Sir.

If love means sparkling between 2 people I do not need love, I need forever. No sparkling lasts forever.

Marry someone who makes you energetic, positive, takes you around the world, see n earn good things, gives maturity, smart, wise, and he's only stay with you when you feel as the luckiest one because of having him.

Dare

Let's dare to be honest. Just found a wonderful posting today. 

Yeah.. I remember how he told me that thing. That he loves me most but still can't forget my friend (who was actually not my friend). I ask him did he loves me actually, not just because we're getting close everyday? He said yes. He walk to me on the next day. Hold and kiss me like no one else, say that I'm gonna be his girl. But time never false. He shows what he really is finally. He lies and just don't want to lose his fans. I sacrifice my days for him and that's what he gave to me. Such a b*tchman. No matter how much he asks sorry will never bring my days back to me. My days which fulfilled with hope, believes, trust, and joy. He already changed my days into dark, stupid, and worthless person I ever met. I didn't know myself anymore since that day. Maybe that's too funny for him and everyone. Thanks for those who thought that. Have you ever lose your entire life savings? It's easy to say "it's okay, lets moving on, you can seek another money". Money are that easy to get, but whenever I remember I was being theft that's the day I will never forget. That thief just not only steals my days, I'm also betrayed by the police. Police always said that they're good, the appears everywhere, shows everybody as if "you're secure with us". But you know what when I told them I was theft? They laugh at me, told me that I'm preeetty stupid. Most imbisil woman in town, or ever maybe in the world. Only idiots could be disguided by a thief like that. I want to trust nobody since that day.

Dear mr. Thief, I hope you hurt as long as your entire life, with all your family, kids, and wife. There's must be somebody who kill idiots man like you.

I had strange n uncomfortable feeling about myself. 

I had strange n uncomfortable feeling about myself. 

Pasti seneng bisa ngerjain apa yang kita suka. Permasalahannya adalah: gue suka apa? 

Rk said profesi yang menyenangkan adalah hobi yang dibayar. What was my hobby? Stalking people?

Good boss is someone who have both a kind heart and smart problemsolver. Cute boss is someone who has those both plus a cute looks to office.

Daughter story

I used to think that mother doesn't actually loves me. Maybe she hopes a girl fulfilled with courage and bravery, winning every competition, school leader, acceleration class, always be 1st grade, having kind and holy husband, married at 20's and having child after that, and having a happy life ever after.

That's a very ideal dream, but I'm not even one of that. I better go than living in pity-ness. I hope a mother that accept me, what and how I'm thinking, not somebody who strikes her thoughts to me.

Wish I could be somebody you want.

Ages & goals

God gives ages for everyone who lived. I think live is about filling the ages with cherish goal. Married, having cute children, see them winning competitions and having life better than us.

I don't know which is better. With or without a boyfriend, slow or fast moving, polite or unpolite, dreaming or not dream. If I had a chance to repeat my own life I wanna be a better version of myself.

I'm 28

Let's forget likes n dislikes. Show that you have a good quality as human living. Earn money, be independent.

It's important to have a life like you want. You'll never see a beautiful world made by others, you have to make it yourself, without losing careness to other.

I always tought what if I did something right? Seems not yet

No matter how I learn I always makes mistakes. So I decide running for someone that accept my lack but still have goodness. I'll be the better one for myself first.

I hope someday somebody shows and say yes to teach me to be good and great one.

Family impact

UDifferent family gives different impact. Nyonyah's family gives open minded child, who has very big courage to travel the entire world. My family gives their child courage to be a better person, and never leave anybody in life (which I'm not that agree with that. It's okay to remove toxic person in life). My mother and father told me to have a pure love actually, but someone has broke it all so seems I won't have it for my entire life. My love is still pure, but I won't be owned. I'm not a pet.

10th anniversary

This is the 10th anniversary of my college club. It's been 10 years ago since we were accepted as architecture student. Many memories past. Teenage love, gue yang ribut galak naif dan geli banget kalo dikejar cowok. Kayaknya udah bedaa banget sm keadaan skrg. I'm more girly now, yang pengen diturutin kepengennya cuma dengan tunjuk2, gak pengen ada cowok deket2 tp pengen ngedeketin cowok yg gue pengen. I was thinkin about only that day, now I'm thinking about tomorrow n tommorow after. I know I'm really an average or lower than that. But myself deserves for applause because of courage that I have fighting fears, unknownledgement, and past bad memories. My friends has flow higher, I should be proud of myself, find my track, and be a happy person as them.

Dear my beloved one

Dear sir,

I hope you know n feel that you are the very important person of me. I'll put your number as my emergency number if those don't disturb you. But I really know that you are very busy person who has hundred of colleagues text you every minute, so I just hope God will tell you about this.

I'm sure I'm the one who's gonna be getting shocked when something bad happen to you, i hope I can be your number one person, but I don't know will I propose you as my close partner such as boyfriend if you were still single? Thank God you're married. 

I'm happy with our short togetherness. I hope i'll meet someone like you in the other side of the world, and maybe if he's still single I'll propose him as my husband. 

Friend

Hope I could have someone who love me truly n much.

Best man in life is someone who makes my life better, good, and happier.

Hal paling ga enak itu ternyata saat pgn kangen orang tapi ga ada yg dikangenin

Masalah kerjaan, ttd, foto, dan punishment itu bnr2 nyeremin ya. Gue gak kebayang what would I face. 

"You need to have a dream and pursue it." -- Mr. Ong

He surprised me when he gave an absolute grade for my apartment design. I'm not feeling special about it n i believe I'm an ordinary people, I'm not even an engineer or architect. I'm just a stupid student.

His words open my eyes about "having a dream is not a crime, everybody may have it". Yeah Sir, I need to figt for my life. I need to fight a good life, for me first, my parents n family, and child if God let me to. Now please let me cheer my boss n lecturer please, they've been trusted me and hope for my best, i wont let anybody dissapointed. Then let me fly to the moon.

At child, grandma told you to do good things. As we grow up life told you to do great things, which sometimes means sacrificing other people. That's the problem. I do good first, but often people have me to be keep doing great. It's okay to not doing good for them.

Awww.. Thanks people. Lav ya. Please be good to me.

Keep faith even life leads you on hardest situation, God will help you (while he exist?)

Spend your days with matters people for your future 

There's come a day when all faith are gone. Keep moving. Better die than fail.

The idiots one need more effort, more working time, less sleep, more focus so they can run with the normal people

Yg belom: tampak, pot, benerin denah+ffl

Di dunia ini buat saya telah diciptakan orang yang sangat nyaman untuk membicarakan hal apapun, have future plans (buat dirinya sendiri), dan punya lebih banyak pengalaman dr saya. I have to keep my manner when we talked because however he's my own ex boss and he's that older than me. The one I love the most, believe most, makes me happier most, the best one of mine.

What you are n where you born is not very important. The matter things are what you are and what you do. If you do much for the world everyone will staring at you.

True love

True love is something you stand to keep it fight even everybody's trying to makes you down or said impossible

Good things

Good things are not only happen by hard work. These also need a heart, good plan, n mental readiness